Mad...no more to say

I start...again. Frustrated, mad, discouraged, depressed with myself. But I never stop trying. Today ... as always, I start over. Day 1.

Perfect 10 SW ~ 157.8
7/7/11 WI ~ 164
7/14/11 WI ~ None on vacation
7/21/11 WI ~ 165.2
7/28/11 WI ~ 164.8
8/4/11 WI ~ 167.4 (WTH?!!)

Dear God, hear my plea...hear my cries. I do not want to go this way. What is wrong with me? Can you please help me get back on the right track, hold my hand - pick me up and carry me, as I'm so hurting right now. I want to lose weight, not gain it! Thank you Lord...in Jesus name I pray...Amen

Weekend Days 2 -4 Updates

Weekends are tough. I know it, you know it...the key is to not let them get you down, try your hardest and just move forward when they are over. Preparing for them helps, but isn't always successful.

My weekend started out great. Football practice for my little guy didn't happen. I don't know if it wasn't scheduled or what, but that was the first kink in my plan. I had already decided to go walk the track while he was at practice. When we got there and no one was there I ALMOST talked myself out of walking. But then I was like, nope...starting the weekend off on the right foot, and I did it. Walked 2 miles while the boys ran around the football field.

Saturday I prepared a healthy breakfast to start the day off right. I did pretty good, and even planned my indulgences (snack and dinner). So I'm happy about that.

Sunday rolled around, woke up late so couldn't eat my healthy breakfast I had prepared Saturday. By the time I got around to lunch (1:30) I was STARVING. This is where it all went down the drain. But, the wonderful thing with WW (old points) is that I have flex points I can use. I used every single one yesterday. Means I have 3 days of being GOOD! I will still earn my AP to give me a few extras, but the key is to totally stay within my 22pts/day range! I CAN DO IT!! I want Thursday to come around and me be super happy with what the scale says!!! I know how to do this, I can do this!!!

Day 2 Friday
NUTRITION: 4pts
22pts/day - I used my AP's and a FP but still within! (25-2-1)- 1pt
Eat 7 - 10 freggis/day (7)- 1pt
Drink minimum of 80 oz h20 (100) - 1pt
Journal - 1pt

EXERCISE: 2pts
Workout ran laps at track and ran bleachers - 1pt
Earn enough AP to support healthy eating - 1pt

EXTRAS: 3pts
Get at least 7hrs sleep (7hrs) - 1pt
Blog regularly (Yep!) - 1pt
Email/Twitter/FB/Txt friends for support/accountability (Heather & Sarah) - 1pt

TOTAL: 9pts, didn't quite meet the goal, but still good.


Day 3 Saturday
NUTRITION: 4pts
22pts/day - I used my FP but still within! (37-15)- 1pt
Drink minimum of 80 oz h20 (85) - 1pt
Allow ONE PI Meal (ate cheeseburger and fries at the track) TWO snacks (homemade banana pudding) - 1pt
Journal - 1pt

EXERCISE: 0pts

EXTRAS: 2pts
Get at least 7hrs sleep (7hrs) - 1pt
Email/Twitter/FB/Txt friends for support/accountability (Heather & Sarah) - 1pt

TOTAL: 6pts


Day 4 Sunday
NUTRITION: 3pts
22pts/day - I used the rest of my FP but still within! (40-18)- 1pt
Drink minimum of 80 oz h20 (80) - 1pt
Journal - 1pt

EXERCISE: 0pts

EXTRAS: 2pts
Get at least 7hrs sleep (7hrs) - 1pt
Email/Twitter/FB/Txt friends for support/accountability (Heather & Sarah) - 1pt

TOTAL: 5pts


*Realization here, need to earn more points on the weekend...weekends are indeed tough. But to be successful I know I really need to tackle them head on!!!

Today, a new day...a fresh start...and I'm ready!

Day 1 Update

After my blog yesterday something started to turn inside me...and yes, something began to click. I got my hand-dandy phone out and started texting 2 of my good friends to help get me motivated. And that's just the key...helping each other out. I'm happy to report that it was successful, and so thankful to have text both my girls! It is the plan to continue, so that we can always keep each other in check!!!

Here is my points update:

NUTRITION: 4pts
22pts/day - I used my AP's and a FP but still within! (25-2-1)- 1pt
Eat 7 - 10 freggis/day (7)- 1pt
Drink minimum of 80 oz h20 (100) - 1pt
Journal - 1pt

EXERCISE: 3pts
Workout ran laps at track and ran bleachers - 1pt
Earn enough AP to support healthy eating - 1pt
Start training for 1/2 marathon (running) - 1pt

EXTRAS: 3pts
Get at least 7hrs sleep (7hrs) - 1pt
Blog regularly (yesterday!) - 1pt
Email/Twitter/FB/Txt friends for support/accountability (Heather & Sarah) - 1pt

TOTAL: 10pts!! Met my goal of 10 - 14pts/day

Now here's to another day!! :)

Does it ever just "click"

Yeah, yeah...I know. So much for blogging regularly right?! And you know what that also means, yeah...haven't been on track what-so-ever. I just never give up though, so today starts fresh again. Thinking that maybe a daily points thing might work better. So, with my goals I posted a few weeks ago, I will get points for each of them that I complete each day. Earning 10-14pts/day is the goal. I'm going to go fill up my calendar days with little smiley faces for every one! Oh I feel like I'm in school again!! Hoping this little "incentive" works.

Honestly, I know what to do...I have done it for a long time. It's the figuring out WHY I'm NOT doing it...why won't it just "click" into place again.

Perfect 10 SW ~ 157.8
7/7/11 WI ~ 164
7/14/11 WI ~ None on vacation
7/21/11 WI ~ 165.2
7/28/11 WI ~ 164.8

How to do it...

It's been a long time since I really laid out some goals. Both fitness and body. I know it's easy to say "yeah, I wanna lose 30lbs and be at goal weight". But honestly I have finally figured out there is much more than that. Not only do I want to lose those last 30'ish pounds, but I also want to be in SHAPE. Be tone, and feel GREAT about myself. Right now I'm far from that. I feel horrible and defeated. To reach my goals I know that this list is important

NUTRITION
22pts/day and re-figure when weight is lost
Eat 7-10 freggies/day
Drink a minimum of 80oz h20/day
Journal EVERY SINGLE DAY
Allow ONE PI (Planned Indulgence) meal and TWO PI snacks / week
Produce with protein
Breakfast like a queen, lunch like a princess, dinner like a peasant


EXERCISE
Workout 5-6 days/week (even if only 15 mins!)
Earn enough activity points to support my healthy eating
Bump up to 15 pushups at a time (currently at 10)
Be able to do a pull up (this requires PRACTICE Mandie)
Play at the playground to get myself in shape for Warrior Dash next month
Start training for 1/2 marathon in November (RUN!)

EXTRAS
Get at least 7hrs of sleep/night
Monthly measurements and pics
Blog regularly

I will re-evaluate this in 2 months

Today that stops

Every weigh day comes with dread because I know I haven't done my best. Today that stops. I managed to lose .2 lb, after a big 4lb gain last week. When I try and figure out what the heck is wrong with me, WHY, knowing how unhappy I am with my weight, I draw a blank. Today that stops. Weekends have always been the blame, but when the weigh day has changed to later in the week and you still have a crappy weigh in, weekends aren't the only things messing me up. Today that stops.

Today I restart Weight Watchers (the old points). In the past I have lost 75lbs. I'm up 10lbs from my lowest, and gradually that 10lbs has creeped on. I have been focusing on calories, using sparkpeople, making sure my protein intake has been good. Today though I will still use sparkpeople for support, encouragement, I will restart my paper journals for WW. IT WORKS for me!!! I don't know why the calorie counting DOES NOT...but it honestly just DOES NOT.

Today I make that commitment to change. I will still eat healthy clean foods, watch my protein intake, and exercise like I have been (and more)... but today I feel comfortable knowing I will succeed with WW.

Perfect 10 SW ~ 157.8
7/7/11 WI ~ 164 (BLAH)

Perfect 10

I am joining Christine's 10 Week Calorie Counting Challenge --June 21st-August 30th, 2011.

Yeah I'm sure it won't be a perfect 10...but I'm going to aim for a GREAT 10 weeks of this challenge. I need this challenge.

1. Define your Ultimate Goal: Weight loss (10-20 lbs?), health, fitness, clothing sizes, lifestyle changes? My Ultimate Goal is to lose the remaining 30'ish pounds that I have been struggling with for years. I also would REALLY like to have a NORMAL BMI. Sick of the overweight and obese ones!!! Clothing ...single digits, need I say more?!!!! And overall I'd just like to eat healthier, cleaner meals. Produce plus protein = supportive meals!
2. How many calories do YOU need to maintain your current weight? For the purpose of this challenge, take your current weight x10 to get your daily maintenance calorie goal. Interestingly this shows 1600 calories (give or take a few). I believe my calorie intake should be between 1500 - 1793.
   
3. Define your exercise goals: A good target goal is to burn 250-500 calories per day. My range I want to aim for is 250 - 500 calories per day.
   
4. Define your food/intake goals: A good target goal is to eat 250-500 calories less than maintenance (see #2) daily. Again, this one I'm keeping my calories at 1500 - 1793. After figuring my BMR and TDEE this is what I come up with.
   
5. Patience and consistency: Give it time to add up, don't give up before it all starts to pay off! Easier said than done...right? :)
   

I will be using Sparkpeople to track my food and exercise. My Spark Page

Here's to a great 10 weeks! Hopefully by the end of the 10 weeks I will be at least 10lbs lighter!!!

My starting weight (weighed in on Thursday 6/16/11) is 157.8

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