Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Some days are sad....

Today I don't feel like myself.  I can't figure it out.  I'm just not happy.  I'm upset with myself mainly.  That I would let myself go like I have, regain the weight I worked SO hard to get off (nearly 30lbs).  I'm just blah.  I get motivation from others...but then can't follow through.

Being a single Mom is tough.  I'm stressed out .  From financially always struggling.... figuring out how to date....and just dealing with every day life (laundry, dinner, housework, homework, kids), is just so hard.  I think I tend to eat because of the stress at home.  I do fantastic all day at work...and then go home and I'm like STARVING.  I dunno...

Anyway, I never give up.  That's the key...never giving up.

I just joined a DietBet challenge this weekend and can hardly wait!  Praying it keeps me motivated and I lose my 4%!

I'm signing up for a 5K, the Bunny Rock and possibly the 500 Festival 5K.  I was supposed to be doing the half marathon, but I'm ashamed to admit I haven't trained a lick for it. Can't even run a straight 3 miles right now.... Sigh.  So, I'm working on those.  There will be some more 5K's (Color Run for sure!)...and hopefully by fall a half marathon.  That is my ultimate goal.  I love running, WHEN I'm in shape and trained for it.

I'm just so unhappy with where I am right now... sigh.  Really could use some prayers.