Thursday, April 26, 2012

Sometimes the scale likes you...

I had myself talked out of weighing in today. I mean, it was only going to set me up for destruction, and slap me in the face right? The past week was HORRID with eating. I tracked everything I ate (WW points and calories in myfitnesspal) and I was over nearly every day...yeah. Oh and add I didn't/haven't worked out!

But late last night I changed my mind.

I decided to make myself some May goals (plans are good for Mandie) being to start the JM 30 day Slimdown. In doing that, I was going to need a starting weight. So, it's kind of like the book "If you give a Mouse a Cookie...", things just start reminding you of other things. So yep...I decided to get on that scale this morning. Beforehand I actually prayed about it! Now who does that?! I wasn't trying to make a deal with God by any means, just asking for some support. I envisioned seeing the 170's again, and honestly I deserved it. I was scared. I needed comfort and support from Him.

You imagine my shock when I see an actual loss. WTH?! I'm supposed to being seeing 3lb gain (maybe a maintain), so seeing a loss (.4lb) is just nutty. But you know what, even though it's an undeserving loss...I'll take it with a smile and Thank God for it!!

You know what this means though......... yeah, it's got to be the start of a fire. I want a blazing fire to come out of this!!!

So, without further ado .... my May goals

  • Continue getting up early to spend time with God (prayer and the Word) 
  • Journal every day staying within points/calories (I know this won’t always happen, but I really need to clean up my eating to get anywhere, so I NEED to get serious about it) 
  • Drink 100 oz of water
    Get back and stay on my 10k running training schedule 
  • 5 days of exercise (whether it’s at the gym or at home, not including my runs) 
  • JM 30 day Slimdown 
  • Lose 8lbs and/or drop a size 

Have you made goals for May yet??

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Here I am again....

It's really been a long time since I posted anything. I'm ashamed of it too. Not just my lack of blogging, but my lack of losing weight, and what's worse, REGAINING weight. Little by little I'm up nearly 15lbs from my lowest. Am I mad, yep. Disgusted, yep. Giving up, nope. I start new every day...some days I do great, and the next may slip and fall...but I keep trying. The end of 2011 up until now has been dramatic to say the least. I shouldn't and can't use it as an excuse, but deep down it is. There should be NO excuses. But unfortunately I have used what happened in my life the past few months as an excuse. I'm finally ready to put the excuse down and move forward. I just reread my goals and plans for 2012. I have some major slack to pick up, but all is not lost!!! I'm excited. Tonight I'm working on a challenge for myself to help jumpstart me. I have started reading a few new blogs, and that has inspired me to get back into blogging and this in general. I'm not a great writer like they all are, but this to me is like a diary and will help me get it out, and hopefully keep me accountable!!!! Tomorrow my challenge/goal for the month of May!!