Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Weekly Weigh In

Yes, another week has gone by and I haven't updated. Argh! I don't know what my problem is. I promise, it's NOT that I'm hiding because I'm not OP. I'm completely OP and feel really good about it, so that's good. But, why I'm MIA here...well I don't know?!! I am busy with things, but still...I should make time for this. And I think I'll make that a weekly goal for this week!

So let's backtrack. This past week I have been FOCUSED. I've been really really trying, using all sorts of advice and digging deep within me to get the strength to do this journey. I've been busy in the evenings working on couponing (a new love of mine ... all in hopes to keep me busy instead of eating). And guess what...this has ALL WORKED! Yes, I am on a roll folks, and I feel really good about it.

Okay, okay...ya'll want to know the results of my weigh in right? Well this was week 4 (does week 1 count, since that's a starting weight?? I get confused with that) since I've rejoined WW...and if you remember, last week I had a zero loss. I was disappointed, BUT instead of being upset about it and gorge...it helped me stick to it. I also want to say that this was the first week I used eTools for everything. Using a "new program" I think really helped with my tracking. Oh yeah...my weigh in.....

I lost 3.4lbs this week!

You can see me smiling ... right?! Super stoked gal here! PLUS I earned my first 5lb star! Yippie! I've lost a total of 5.8lbs since starting! I'm very happy.

I also had a total NSV on Saturday. The Hunney stopped at Rally's for a bite to eat. I had already ate my dinner (Subway), but 5 hours previously (he's weird and never hungry at the appropriate times!). Let's just say that Rally's in the past has been one of my favorites, because I RARELY eat there (uh...more than 2 years ago I'd say). I so wanted something...but told myself I could wait to eat something when I got home in 30 mins, and that it really wasn't worth it...I have worked TOO hard this week. When Hunney bit into one of his burgers and there were onions and pickles on it (a HUGE no no!). So I had to get them off for him (he was driving). When I reached into the bag to get the other burger and fix it for him, there were 3 bag fries in there (I'm sure you all know what I'm talking about). I said, "well I'll eat these 3 fries". I ate one fry and about puked (sorry). It was GROSS! I can't even describe the taste in my mouth...but it was horrid. A cross between grease and dirt??? I dunno, it was just so gross I couldn't eat the other 2. The Hunney said he was SO proud of me!!! And really, I was proud of myself. My body just doesn't like that food anymore I guess! Yay!!!

At the WW meeting this morning the focus was on "are we really hungry?" And I can clearly say that a few weeks ago, I THOUGHT I was hungry 95% of my awake hours. After today's meeting (and I have lots more reading to do), I don't think so. I think it's just a habit thing for me, and possibly boredom. I have never once really admitted that. I've always said "Oh I'm ALWAYS hungry". And it was frustrating to me that someone would say "I have to MAKE myself eat, because I'm never hungry". It's clear time to learn the difference here...and I'm about to do it. I'm hoping I can reflect on some of what I learn from this with you all, because I seriously need to figure this part out.

What I accomplished last week:
  • Track every single day! - YES! (and I'm going to share a screenshot of my eTools for the week!)
  • Start back up on JM Shred (Day 15) - No...I just am out of focus with it...argh!
  • Get 4 folders off my desk! - No
  • Daily vitamin - Yes
  • Decide on the class I'm considering taking - I decided NOT to take the course...not for me right now
  • Read 1 day - Yes, I finished my Ali Vincent book!
  • Stairs at work 3 times ONE day - Uh...No...I didn't even do it ONE DAY! Geez!

What I want to accomplish this week:
  • Track every single day!
  • Exercise 5 days
  • Finish my weekly tasks for work (or at least get a huge dent in it)
  • Daily vitamin
  • Menu plan for February, using what I have in the pantry
  • Read 1 day
  • Stairs at work 3 times ONE day
  • Blog 3 times

Here's my first week of using eTools (I think if you click it will make it larger)

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Weekend Recap, Weekly Weigh In

HIya! Yes...I'm still around. Just uh...lazy....I guess is the word. Well, Monday was a holiday and I was at home kicking it with my kiddos - okay and a little shopping, and then yesterday I was so upset by my weigh in at WW's that I just couldn't do anything.

So, if ya'll wanna know, I lost a big fat ZERO at weigh in yesterday. Yes, I was disappointed, but I'm over it. I honestly felt like I did good last week, so it was quite a shock. But looking over my tracker again, I did fudge here and there (the Saturday buffet), and I used my AP's and WP's...so I like I said, I'm over it. This week is going to be a different story though, you can betcha!!

The weekend was nice. I went to spin class on Saturday morning. That was awesome. Then I did some shopping afterwards. My Big Boy had gone to his Dad's for the weekend, so it was just the Little Guy at home with the Hunney. That evening the Little Guy went to Mamaw and Papaw's so the Hunney and I could go to the racer's banquet (fyi the Hunney drag races - and does REALLY good). That was fun, and yes, I ate too much. Then afterwards we went to the casino to watch the Colts play, and play some slots. Good time...but we didn't hit the jackpot. Sunday we slept in and then I had to do a bit of grocery shopping (produce). Nothing really much more than that!

My Weekend Plans were
  • Track every day - Yep!
  • Guzzle 80oz h20/day - Sure did!
  • Spin class on Saturday - YES!
  • Eat RIGHT at the Ponderosa, and enjoy the banquet - Pretty good
  • Shred at least once - No :(
  • Work on recipe binder - YES!!

Now onto the weekly goals!

What I accomplished last week:
  • Track every single day! - YES!
  • Continue with the JM 30 day shred! - NO
  • Get 4 folders off my desk! - YES!!!!
  • Daily vitamin - YES!!!
  • Work on my new recipe binder Mom bought me for Christmas - YES!!!
  • Read 1 day - YES! Read my WW material!
  • Stairs at work 3x/day 3x/week - Nope

What I want to accomplish this week:
  • Track every single day!
  • Start back up on JM Shred (Day 15)
  • Get 4 folders off my desk!
  • Daily vitamin
  • Decide on the class I'm considering taking
  • Read 1 day
  • Stairs at work 3 times ONE day

Friday, January 15, 2010

Weekend Plans

Just so you all know, I'm NOT avoiding my blog. For once! I'm actually totally on track and rocking...but busy and haven't had much time to read my daily favorites, let alone blog about anything. So...forgive me. But hopefully next week I'll have some more time on my hands and can post daily, maybe even a few recipes with pictures and such!

In the meantime, just wanted to throw out a huge thank you for all the comments on me being obsessed earlier in the week. I believe I'm okay...and she has issues. And honestly, it's ONE of the reasons our bff stats have been diminishing. I can't say it didn't hurt though...the things she says definitely stabbed me... but I'm a big girl and really...I'm over it!

Okay so it's the weekend, and I'm totally not nervous about it. Well...okay, MAYBE slightly because the Hunney's annual racers banquet is Saturday at ...gulp...the Ponderosa! There it is...the word of evil for us trying to get healthy and lose weight...shall I really say it???? B-U-F-F-E-T. Anyway, I'll try my butt off and REALLY make smart choices...I can do this!

Here's my

Weekend Plans

  • Track every day
  • Guzzle 80oz h20/day
  • Spin class on Saturday
  • Eat RIGHT at the Ponderosa, and enjoy the banquet
  • Shred at least once (I've been slacking on this because of the earlier workouts in the day)
  • Work on recipe binder

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Weigh In...and am I obsessed?

Today is weigh day as ya'll know. And since I'm weighing in at work (for a biggest loser type of game), and at Weight Watchers I've decided NOT to weigh in at home. Can you imagine the pain that was? I've actually just left my scale at work so I won't even be tempted! I will be using my official weigh ins through the Weight Watchers scale. That way I have to keep going.

So, after my first full week of being back on the program (paying for it anyway), and doing the Shred, as well as a spin class, I lost............................

2.4lbs! Yippie! Super happy about that! I expected to see a good number since I HAVE been working my but off...and as we see, it pays!

Now yesterday I wanted to talk to you all about something. I'm not sure how to word this, so forgive me when it gets all jumbled and stuff.

I have a friend that is about 80lbs overweight. She's one of my besties. She has seen me at my highest, and at my lowest. She believes I am obsessed with my weight and comments about it ALL the time. It kind of hurts my feelings, because honestly I don't think I'm "obsessed". Yeah, I may talk about it all the time with her, but that's because I want to share my success with her and get her on the bandwagon with me...plus she my bestie, and I NEED her support. Losing weight as we all know, is TOUGH work!!!

Anyway, she informs me a few weeks ago that her Dr is referring her to have the lap band procedure as a medical necessity. She's not 100lbs overweight, so they wouldn't even look at her until her other Dr put it as that. So, now she gets to go have it done. Nice!

I was talking to her yesterday about it (wish I could find the chat) and she's all excited, and honestly I'm excited for her too. Well, up came the part of my obsession. She has to chime in that my obsession is probably why I rollercoaster with my weight - according to her material the office gave her to read up on. I was silent....I didn't know what to say. Made me question, am I REALLY that obsessed? Could this be why I DO rollercoaster? And when I say rollercoaster, I want to say that when I got to my lowest (155) I ate healthy and exercised. When stress hits we all know what way we go... but is that OBSESSION? And then it hurt my feelings that SHE would/could say anything to me about it. The anger then starts to boil. I am the one for the past 4'ish years have been kicking my own butt with eating right (thank you Weight Watchers - which equals no serious low calorie/dangerous plan) and exercising. And I do mean exercising 5-6 days/week because I LOVE it. But not crazy amounts of time in the gym or working out...just 60'ish minutes! I don't purge, I don't take meds or weightloss pills, I am HEALTHY. So what is so obsessive?

Okay...stop...do you see the anger now???? Here's a person who will sit there and say "oh but I eat healthy, and very little...I don't understand WHY I can't lose weight".... but then is still 80lbs overweight....and has the nerve to say that it's no wonder I rollercoaster! UGH! I'm still so upset from it.

Again, I didn't know what to say...and kind of just went numb. Do any of you have friends like this? I mean...she's my best friend...then why do some things she say and do HURT SO BAD?????

Moving on....I have my own cheerleaders. The Hunney and the kiddos. They support me 100%, and that matters. I'm doing this for ME, to get me healthy. And I keep on trying.

Well, it's time for the fun...

What I accomplished last week:
  • Track every single day - a big fat YES!!!!
  • Continue with the JM 30 day shred - All but 1 rest day I gave myself!
  • Get 4 folders off my desk - Nope...close though.
  • Daily vitamin - Yes!
  • Get my herb garden going - Yes!
  • Work on my new recipe binder Mom bought me for Christmas - No...overwhelmed by it
  • Read 1 day - Yes...Ali Vincent book and my WW Material
What I want to accomplish this week:

  • Track every single day!
  • Continue with the JM 30 day shred!
  • Get 4 folders off my desk!
  • Daily vitamin
  • Work on my new recipe binder Mom bought me for Christmas
  • Read 1 day
  • Stairs at work 3x/day 3x/week

Monday, January 11, 2010

Weekend Recap

I am sorry, but I only have a moment to post today. I really have a LOT I want to say...about my obsession (or not) with weightloss...so hopefully tomorrow I have time, because I'd LOVE all your input.

But, today has to be a shortie...just an update on the weekend. I will say that I'm anxious for tomorrow's first week's weigh in! I have been REALLY on track this week and working out...so it SHOULD be a good scale tomorrow. Fingers are crossed!!!

My plans were:
  • Continue tracking
  • Drink 80+ oz h20/day
  • Shred
  • Take the boys to the library /nature center since it's too cold outside to hike
  • Clean bathroom and organize the kiddos dressers (update sizes...AGAIN)
  • Get herb garden started
  • Read

Here is my outcome:

  • I tracked everything, every day!
  • Yeppers, sure did thanks to my new water bottle my Momma got me for Christmas!
  • I Shredded Friday and Saturday, but yesterday I took a much needed rest.
  • Did not get the boys to the Nature Center of the Library...time slipped away TOO fast! Sorry boys!
  • I did get the master bathroom cleaned, but couldn't bring myself to do the dressers!
  • Herb garden is officially started and I'm anxious to see germination!!!
  • Read some of my Ali Vincent book as well as all of my WW material!!!
Hope ya'll had a WONDERFUL weekend...I sure did :)

Friday, January 8, 2010

Snow Day and it's the weekend!!

Due to the several inches of snow dumped on us we had a snow day. This means...Mandie at home...all day...out of her routine (can you see the nail biting?). I was nervous for a SPLIT second, then I decided I would just keep myself busy. Hmmm...what could I do? The wheels were a turning in my head. I would clean our bedroom, a bathroom, as well as sweep and mop the kitchen. I had a plan!
Once I got busy, the wheels were flying. I remembered I had a carcass in the freezer, so I found a recipe to make my own stock. While that was cooking I found another recipe from here to make chicken noodle soup! Suddenly I felt in control!!

Lunch was some leftover ravioli lasagna (the whole family LOVED), and then the little one needed a nap. I promised my kiddos that we'd go out to play in the 6 inches of snow when he got up from his nap. I went back to my cleaning.

When the little guy got up, my big boy was READY!! The funny part...it took us 30 mins to bundle up in layers to go out and play for 45 mins. But it was precious time spent together...and we were active and out of the house!!!!

The soup was a HUGE hit for dinner, and I definitely will make it again. Even the picky Hunney LOVED it!! You can see the super huge smile on my face right? I'd like to note that I am doing a pantry challenge, silently. I didn't want to feel like a out of place or whatever compared to the others doing it...even though I know it's just a personal thing... is that self-doubt I'm hearing here? ANYWAY...I'm doing awesome on the pantry challenge.
When the kiddos were in bed, Momma made time to do her Shred!!! Level 2 is STILL kicking my butt. But I love Jillian and this workout. But whoa...is it tough! I'm seriously dreading level 3!
So, I'm proud to announce the day was a complete success...and it makes me confident that the weekend will be OK! I can do this!!!
Weekend Plan
  • Continue tracking
  • Drink 80+ oz h20/day
  • Shred
  • Take the boys to the library /nature center since it's too cold outside to hike
  • Clean bathroom and organize the kiddos dressers (update sizes...AGAIN)
  • Get herb garden started
  • Read

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Weekly Goals (will I ever get more creative with the titles?)

Today I did something I haven't done in nearly 2 years.... I went to spin class! Yay me! Well I made it...and survived. At the LAST minute I almost backed out and didn't go...coming up with every excuse in the book (coworker didn't want to go, it's COLD outside, it was snowing, etc etc). BUT, I went and got dressed and just did it. When I got there, I was early...wanted to be...because you have to set up your bike to fit your needs, and I couldn't remember exactly where it was comfy for me. The class was locked and NO ONE was there. I thought... oh great, the class has been moved or worse...canceled. Then slowly everyone started showing up. If you've never been to a spin class...let me just say these people are die-hards! They go right to their business...usually without talking or smiling. I thought to myself "what have I got myself into!". I felt out of place for a brief moment, then remembered why I was there...for ME! Got my bike all set up and the music started. Fortunately (and I say this "lightly) it was HOT in the room, so the instructor couldn't work us to death! But I'll just say it was TOUGHER than TOUGH...and I again, LOVED every minute of it!!!!! I can't wait to hit up another one! They don't offer the classes at the most "convenient" times for me, so typically I can only go on a Saturday morning. But lately my Saturday's have been taking care of the kids as Hunney has been doing another job. So, we'll see when I get to do another one.

Tonight I'll keep up with my commitment to the 30 Day Shred. I think I'm on day 9, and yesterday was the first day I did it on level 2. I STILL can not believe how much harder level 2 was than level 1. YEOWCH! But, I love the workout. I like that it splits it up into 3 sets. That makes it seem like there is an end to come! Okay, call me silly if ya want.

I told ya'll I rejoined WW's on Tuesday...and we discussed Tracking and the importance of it. It's funny that this was what the topic was, because just the week before I started tracking again. For me, it really makes the world of difference. When I don't track, I'm off...and WAY off. They gave the statistic that when you don't track, you're 500 - 1000 calories higher than what you think. I totally believe that. And as a side note, I've figured out that I tend to NOT track, when I'm going off track. That made last week kind of hard. With New Year's thrown in there, the Hunney and I went out to dinner at the Olive Garden (we very rarely go out to eat). I had a plan, ordering off the kids menu, and choosing healthy foods. That went out the window as soon as we got there. I mean I made BETTER choices, but not exactly the best. Anyway...back to the point here...I did NOT want to track, but I made myself. Sure, I was OVER in my points...and honestly most days, and even over my flex points....BUT...I tracked. That was a big thing for me. Tracking is SUPER important for me to succeed, and I know this. So, as usual, it will be a goal for me this week...and every week after!

Moving on to the fun part!

What I accomplished last week:
I hadn't sent any goals for myself...but I DID
  • Tracked every single day - even though I wasn't perfect and didn't want to track!
  • Exercised 6 days (2 times on one day!)
  • Got the Christmas decorations down
  • Planned the monthly menu
What I want to accomplish this week:

  • Track every single day!
  • Continue with the JM 30 day shred!
  • Get 4 folders off my desk!
  • Daily vitamin
  • Get my herb garden going that the Hunney bought me last year at Christmas
  • Work on my new recipe binder Mom bought me for Christmas
  • Read 1 day

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Weigh in at WW Week 1

Well, Week 1 at my Weight Watcher's meeting was loads of fun. I'm remembering things I somehow have forgotten in past. It was great to go...and I'm excited!

I've run out of time today...but will post my goals for the week tomorrow.

In the meantime...

Official Starting Weight at Weight Watchers - 174.2

Monday, January 4, 2010

Monday, Goals, Weight Watchers, etc

Today I did something I hadn't planned on doing, but I feel good about it. I rejoined Weight Watchers (actually going to meetings). I haven't been to a meeting in over 5 years, but have been using the system (which works best for me). So, I dished out the moolah, and hope that attending the meetings will help me like AA meetings help alcoholics. My first meeting will be tomorrow at 9am, wish me luck.

I have been officially back on track for 7 days! That feels good. Yeah, even survived a "holiday" as well as a weekend, and let's not forget 4 days at home without structure. You know what else I've done? I've been exercising at home! Can you believe it? I've committed myself to the Jillian Michael's 30 day Shred the Hunney got me for Christmas (I asked for it). On New Year's Day I actually skipped a workout, so yesterday I went ahead and did a morning workout, and then an evening one to get caught back up! Yay me!!! So, I hope that my hard efforts will pay off on the scale tomorrow (though I'm certain at WW's it will be different than at home - naked!).

I also created some 2010 Goals. I do weekly, monthly and weight-related goals...so yes I even do yearly goals! They help me stay on track with my life and the way I want it to go. No, not necessarily resolutions, but GOALS people! Here they are!

1) Get to GOAL
2) Commit to exercise (5 days/week)
3) Start training for a 1/2 marathon
4) Complete 2 5k's
5) Monthly menu plan
6) Read 12 books
7) Take measurements and pictures once/month
8) Do the stairs at work 3x/day x 3x/week
9) Get a new camera and take more pictures
10) Get into those shorts I've been trying to for years - and get out of them because they are too big!
11) Get my hair cut/done 4x
12) Track our dinner eating out
13) Write my G-ma a letter at least every 3 months
14) Take the boys to the State Park at least once/month, take pics and blog about it!
15) Track our Flex Spending/Insurance

There ya have it!! Haven't committed to any challenges yet, because I've been holding out for the GAG to come up with a new one. So...hopefully tomorrow I'll be adding a new challenge!