That's right folks, one full day of being OP and feeling awesome about it. I know you've probably seen a few of these posts from me...but I have to shout it out. That way if I happen to lose it again, I can search and find THIS post.
Notes to self : Mandie...you feel AWESOME being in control like this. You ate the right foods yesterday, and did not once feel like caving because you were satisfied! Yeah, that's right...satisfied!!! The lunch time run was the mid day energy burst you needed...as well as those heart pumping exercises during the Biggest Loser commercials. REMEMBER how good this feels. I'm "bottling" this up for you to use at a later time. The motivation is very thick in here now...so I'm totally saving it!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay...got that out. So today I've been trying to think of what I can do "differently" with my exercise and it dawned on me...a bike ride with the kiddos! OOOH what fun!!! The temps are wonderful, and the colors of the leaves are WOW! Totally gonna ask Hunney to put the seat back on my bike for the little guy and get to pedaling!!
*Side note...test results back from Drs office with my cholesterol and thyroid - all good. No more trying to blame my lack of weightloss to the stupid thyroid. Phooey...it IS just me. Well, now I know and can grasp this with both hands!!!
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Weekly Weigh In
Hmmm...where do I start? Okay...first off, I had a pretty good week. Not 100%, but pretty good. I lacked some exercise here and there, and honestly, didn't journal on the weekend (even though I felt I did REALLY good), and then there was my family reunion on Sunday, which well....ugh....that was hard. The hard part wasn't the "real" food, but the darn sweets! It's not something I typically have in the house, so when my boys asked for a cupcake, that meant I had to go up to that TABLE of goodies. I caved. Literally. I had almost a piece of everything! GULP! And unfortunately several of those damn persimmon pudding cookies! OUCH!
I didn't want to ruin all my hard work for the week with ONE lousy meal...so I wanted Monday to kick butt. I plan month menus to help stay on track, so I knew I could do it. Then side entrance Hunney, the PICKY eater of the family, the one who REFUSES to go out to eat and spend money on food like that - yes, he feels he doesn't get $10+ worth of food when we go out to eat, thanks to him being soooo stinking picky - he calls me at work, 4:00pm mind you, to ask if we should GO OUT to eat tonight. I believe I drop dead on the floor. "Mandie...are you there?". "uh...yeah, I'm here...OK...what do you want?!!!!!!". At this point I'm so excited, no cooking and clean up for me, eating OUT...oh my goodness what a flippin treat!!!! He says 2 scary words..."Olive Garden". My heart almost stops. The handful of times I've been to the OG I have only tried one thing...pathetic I know. But like I said, we NEVER go out to eat. So I instantly know what I'm going to have to get...the worst thing on the menu...the 1400 calorie dinner not including salad and breadsticks. I remember...weigh in tomorrow morning... ugh. But this day only comes once in a blue moon...so I cave. Why didn't I just order something HEALTHIER from the menu? I don't know...because I didn't have time to prepare?? Because I WANTED to indulge in that wonderful dish that I get very rarely....because it's a happy meal. Yea, it was wonderful...but I hated myself afterwards. The good thing is we went to Walmart and walked around for an hour grocery shopping and such. But it doesn't make up the 1400+ dinner I just swallowed. Yes, that's over my daily calorie LIMIT. Do you see the tears streaming down my face now?
The worst part...when Hunney knows how unhappy I am with the decision I made and says "well, you're going to have to determine what you want more Mandie. Staying where you're at, or losing the weight". Hmmm...really?! Are you sure? Because I'm not getting that dear!!! Somehow in the process of having our home flooded in June 2008, having to MOVE IN with my PARENTS, demolishing the old house and rebuilding...oh and let's include having to live with my parents and their family for 10 LONG months....and finally moving into our new home ...I've REGAINED...yes REGAINED 20'ish lbs, and honestly I'm STUCK. I can NOT get past this, and they won't budge. So remind me...you're just saying I have to decide WHAT I want more? Hmmm....okay, that's easy!
If only it were. Clearly I can see what I want...I can remember what it was like to be 16.4 lbs lighter (yes, I've lost a FEW from the 20)...and I want to taste that again, and move down even more. So why why why am I literally stuck here? UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have worked on goals, I'm meal planning, I'm journaling, I'm exercising (okay, not NEAR as much as I should, or was), but somewhere I must be lying to myself or something...because I'm STUCK.
Weigh in this morning.... 172.4 - a big fat maintain. I suppose I'm lucky for that, after that disgusting meal last night, and the craziness I went on those sweets on Sunday. So I'll smile and try again. It's all I can do, right?
Sigh...literally. At least the GAG challenge should be really challenging me this week. We get extra points for doing some new kind of exercise. That'll spice and shake things up a bit I suppose.
And that's what I did today during my lunch hour. After a couple of weeks of bbbrrrrrrr, cold, weather, it's warmed up a bit. So my workout bud and I went to a nearby park and ran ... drumroll.....OUTSIDE! Oh my goodness, with hills and everything! It was tough, but it was "easier". Running on the track in the gym, or even the treadmill literally wear me out. It's sooo boring. This though physically harder was much more pleasant and ...easier?! I loved it, and look forward to giving it another whirl.
This week I'm aiming for 500 extra exercise points for shaking things up. Hey, I just made a goal for myself. Maybe doing that will help get me refocused and get this weight moving a bit more. Not sure WHAT those differences are going to be...but I'm definitely going to try!!! Shoot, I may be able to get 700 points! Maybe I'll do a video, or take some pictures, but for sure I should be blogging about them!
Another change ... I'm going to stop counting calories. I know...don't faint, or start freaking out on me. If you've been looking at my journals, you'll see I count calories along with WW points. I'm going to just focus on WW points...for 1 month. Starting TODAY. It's worked sooo well for me in the past, I'm praying it will help me again.
One more spark ... I've slacked seriously on my Hundred(s) Challenges, and today I'm starting them again (well week 2 anyway) . I can do these during the Biggest Loser commercials tonight, so I have NO excuse.
I'm going to measure myself and quit focusing JUST on the scale. Maybe I'm stuck on that. I know when I was measuring myself last year (once/month), seeing inches lost was exciting. Not sure why I stopped?
Okay...I think that's enough for now ... you know how my ramblings get. Crazy confusion!
I didn't want to ruin all my hard work for the week with ONE lousy meal...so I wanted Monday to kick butt. I plan month menus to help stay on track, so I knew I could do it. Then side entrance Hunney, the PICKY eater of the family, the one who REFUSES to go out to eat and spend money on food like that - yes, he feels he doesn't get $10+ worth of food when we go out to eat, thanks to him being soooo stinking picky - he calls me at work, 4:00pm mind you, to ask if we should GO OUT to eat tonight. I believe I drop dead on the floor. "Mandie...are you there?". "uh...yeah, I'm here...OK...what do you want?!!!!!!". At this point I'm so excited, no cooking and clean up for me, eating OUT...oh my goodness what a flippin treat!!!! He says 2 scary words..."Olive Garden". My heart almost stops. The handful of times I've been to the OG I have only tried one thing...pathetic I know. But like I said, we NEVER go out to eat. So I instantly know what I'm going to have to get...the worst thing on the menu...the 1400 calorie dinner not including salad and breadsticks. I remember...weigh in tomorrow morning... ugh. But this day only comes once in a blue moon...so I cave. Why didn't I just order something HEALTHIER from the menu? I don't know...because I didn't have time to prepare?? Because I WANTED to indulge in that wonderful dish that I get very rarely....because it's a happy meal. Yea, it was wonderful...but I hated myself afterwards. The good thing is we went to Walmart and walked around for an hour grocery shopping and such. But it doesn't make up the 1400+ dinner I just swallowed. Yes, that's over my daily calorie LIMIT. Do you see the tears streaming down my face now?
The worst part...when Hunney knows how unhappy I am with the decision I made and says "well, you're going to have to determine what you want more Mandie. Staying where you're at, or losing the weight". Hmmm...really?! Are you sure? Because I'm not getting that dear!!! Somehow in the process of having our home flooded in June 2008, having to MOVE IN with my PARENTS, demolishing the old house and rebuilding...oh and let's include having to live with my parents and their family for 10 LONG months....and finally moving into our new home ...I've REGAINED...yes REGAINED 20'ish lbs, and honestly I'm STUCK. I can NOT get past this, and they won't budge. So remind me...you're just saying I have to decide WHAT I want more? Hmmm....okay, that's easy!
If only it were. Clearly I can see what I want...I can remember what it was like to be 16.4 lbs lighter (yes, I've lost a FEW from the 20)...and I want to taste that again, and move down even more. So why why why am I literally stuck here? UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have worked on goals, I'm meal planning, I'm journaling, I'm exercising (okay, not NEAR as much as I should, or was), but somewhere I must be lying to myself or something...because I'm STUCK.
Weigh in this morning.... 172.4 - a big fat maintain. I suppose I'm lucky for that, after that disgusting meal last night, and the craziness I went on those sweets on Sunday. So I'll smile and try again. It's all I can do, right?
Sigh...literally. At least the GAG challenge should be really challenging me this week. We get extra points for doing some new kind of exercise. That'll spice and shake things up a bit I suppose.
And that's what I did today during my lunch hour. After a couple of weeks of bbbrrrrrrr, cold, weather, it's warmed up a bit. So my workout bud and I went to a nearby park and ran ... drumroll.....OUTSIDE! Oh my goodness, with hills and everything! It was tough, but it was "easier". Running on the track in the gym, or even the treadmill literally wear me out. It's sooo boring. This though physically harder was much more pleasant and ...easier?! I loved it, and look forward to giving it another whirl.
This week I'm aiming for 500 extra exercise points for shaking things up. Hey, I just made a goal for myself. Maybe doing that will help get me refocused and get this weight moving a bit more. Not sure WHAT those differences are going to be...but I'm definitely going to try!!! Shoot, I may be able to get 700 points! Maybe I'll do a video, or take some pictures, but for sure I should be blogging about them!
Another change ... I'm going to stop counting calories. I know...don't faint, or start freaking out on me. If you've been looking at my journals, you'll see I count calories along with WW points. I'm going to just focus on WW points...for 1 month. Starting TODAY. It's worked sooo well for me in the past, I'm praying it will help me again.
One more spark ... I've slacked seriously on my Hundred(s) Challenges, and today I'm starting them again (well week 2 anyway) . I can do these during the Biggest Loser commercials tonight, so I have NO excuse.
I'm going to measure myself and quit focusing JUST on the scale. Maybe I'm stuck on that. I know when I was measuring myself last year (once/month), seeing inches lost was exciting. Not sure why I stopped?
Okay...I think that's enough for now ... you know how my ramblings get. Crazy confusion!
Friday, October 16, 2009
Typical rambling post
Wow...can you believe it's Friday, AND that this month is halfway over?! I'm having a hard time grasping that! It means the year end is approaching, and much faster than I realize. I want to hit my upcoming goals, so that means I really need to put it in gear and hang on. Yes, it's going to be tough with Halloween candy, my birthday (my Mom will make me a special cake just so I can stay on track), my FAVORITE holiday - Thanksgiving, along with a work pitch in breakfast, and then of course Christmas and the parties that come along with that. Ugh. Yeah, it's going to be hard...BUT, I can do this!!!! I read something yesterday (or maybe it was the day before), that stuck with me and I keep remembering. "To get something you never had, you have to do something you have never done"... Wow! When I think hard about that I KNOW that is true. It's the exact reason I plateaued last year, and then why I got so frustrated and eventually went the other direction and regained 20lbs. Now I have that phrase to remember...and it will clear things up in my head! :) Whew! I MUST do this!
So, I'm truly in a different mind set this week. Something is clicking, and I feel relief to finally be there again. Yes, I wasted a few (10) months this year...but the important part is that I never gave up and I'm still going. This time I'm going to finish!!! I FEEL it!
This weekend dh will be racing...so that leaves me and the boys. It should be fun...we will for sure get lots of dancing in! We have my family reunion on Sunday, and my goal is to take the backpack carrier and put my little guy in it and take a nice hike! I'm hoping the 4 year old can "hack" it and walk! There will be awesome food at the reunion, but I'm going to do ok...I know I can! Besides that, nothing really going on this weekend! I like that...means it's easier for me to stay on track!
Forgive me with my journals. I keep saying I'm going to get pics and post them...but then forget... so NOW I'm going to post Tue,Wed,Thurs from this week. I don't want to go back any further since my weeks start on Tuesday. So let me do some explaining. This week I decided to start a points system up of my own. Where I get points for water, journaling, exercise, steps, calories, etc. My goal is 70/week. Maybe eventually I'll put the way my points works on the side...but I dont' have the desire to do so now. That sounds bad...sorry. I somewhat got the idea from the GAG challenge. We did points last week, and I think that seemed to really help me stay on track. I also want to say that a blog I read, Christine, does something very similar too, and I REALLY liked how she did it. So, that's where I came up with my own (hope that's okay!). Oh, and you'll see lots of acronyms... here's a little key
DP = daily points - this has to do with my own point system
But these go along with WW. Remember I count calories and pts (because that has what worked for me the best int he past).
APE = Activity Points Earned
APU = Activity Points Used
FPU = Flex Points Used
FPR = Flex Points Remaining
okay...enough rambling
Tuesday 10/13
Wed 10/14
Thurs 10/15
And a picture of my special birthday cake from last year! YUM!
So, I'm truly in a different mind set this week. Something is clicking, and I feel relief to finally be there again. Yes, I wasted a few (10) months this year...but the important part is that I never gave up and I'm still going. This time I'm going to finish!!! I FEEL it!
This weekend dh will be racing...so that leaves me and the boys. It should be fun...we will for sure get lots of dancing in! We have my family reunion on Sunday, and my goal is to take the backpack carrier and put my little guy in it and take a nice hike! I'm hoping the 4 year old can "hack" it and walk! There will be awesome food at the reunion, but I'm going to do ok...I know I can! Besides that, nothing really going on this weekend! I like that...means it's easier for me to stay on track!
Forgive me with my journals. I keep saying I'm going to get pics and post them...but then forget... so NOW I'm going to post Tue,Wed,Thurs from this week. I don't want to go back any further since my weeks start on Tuesday. So let me do some explaining. This week I decided to start a points system up of my own. Where I get points for water, journaling, exercise, steps, calories, etc. My goal is 70/week. Maybe eventually I'll put the way my points works on the side...but I dont' have the desire to do so now. That sounds bad...sorry. I somewhat got the idea from the GAG challenge. We did points last week, and I think that seemed to really help me stay on track. I also want to say that a blog I read, Christine, does something very similar too, and I REALLY liked how she did it. So, that's where I came up with my own (hope that's okay!). Oh, and you'll see lots of acronyms... here's a little key
DP = daily points - this has to do with my own point system
But these go along with WW. Remember I count calories and pts (because that has what worked for me the best int he past).
APE = Activity Points Earned
APU = Activity Points Used
FPU = Flex Points Used
FPR = Flex Points Remaining
okay...enough rambling
Tuesday 10/13
Wed 10/14
Thurs 10/15
And a picture of my special birthday cake from last year! YUM!
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Wanna win some Vitatops?!
Oh yeah baby...these are some of my FAVORITE snacks around! And now you can WIN some... just head on over to the blog "Watch My Butt Shrink"! WOOHOO!!!!!
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Weekly Weigh In
I'm down 2lbs this week! WOOHOO! I'm happy about that, it should help me stay on track. I tried to stay moving all weekend...dancing with the kiddos, Tae-Bo, resistance training and even a 3 mile run around town! Between that and eating A LOT better, drinking my h20 AND journaling help contribute to my 2lb loss this week, and I KNOW it! :) Very happy about it.
I was not online yesterday because my nephew J had his surgery and I was at the hospital all day with my Mom and J. He did very well, and now the long recovery starts. The hospital is not allowing visitors now because of the threat of H1N1, so it doesn't look like I'll be able to visit my Mom and J anymore. They will be able to come home probably Sunday or Monday. A long time....
I said I'd get my journals posted today...but I just don't have time. Hopefully tomorrow!! Sorry!
I was not online yesterday because my nephew J had his surgery and I was at the hospital all day with my Mom and J. He did very well, and now the long recovery starts. The hospital is not allowing visitors now because of the threat of H1N1, so it doesn't look like I'll be able to visit my Mom and J anymore. They will be able to come home probably Sunday or Monday. A long time....
I said I'd get my journals posted today...but I just don't have time. Hopefully tomorrow!! Sorry!
Sunday, October 11, 2009
My Mom....
So it looks like little J is going to have to have surgery tomorrow. Poor thing. I'll be heading up to the hospital after I get my little guys off to school and daycare and my workout for the day in. It'll be a long day, but I'm taking my Mom some groceries, so we can eat "good" and skip out on the cafeteria.
Today I've spent the day doing laundry, cleaning my fridge, micro, the catch-all room (my step sons room every other weekend), and at the store. I'm wore out, yet I still need to get a run in later, when the boys are in bed. I just can't keep my mind off my Mom, and all that she is doing for J. She's missing weeks of work to take care a child that is NOT hers...and honestly, one that isn't even that close to her, not like my kids are. She's awesome, and I love her so much. Thank you Mom for doing all and being the best Mom and Mamaw ever.
Well, I have a few things I want to get finished....so off I go. Oh, and it looks like I won't be getting my journals up on Monday since I'll be at the hospital...I'll have to do that Tuesday...
Today I've spent the day doing laundry, cleaning my fridge, micro, the catch-all room (my step sons room every other weekend), and at the store. I'm wore out, yet I still need to get a run in later, when the boys are in bed. I just can't keep my mind off my Mom, and all that she is doing for J. She's missing weeks of work to take care a child that is NOT hers...and honestly, one that isn't even that close to her, not like my kids are. She's awesome, and I love her so much. Thank you Mom for doing all and being the best Mom and Mamaw ever.
Well, I have a few things I want to get finished....so off I go. Oh, and it looks like I won't be getting my journals up on Monday since I'll be at the hospital...I'll have to do that Tuesday...
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Sunny Saturday
After several days of rain, the sun finally peaks out today!! It's gorgeous...and it's spreading to our moods. The kids and I cleaned the house, okay...I cleaned the house, but they gave it a shot. My oldest even put up toys - after he cried about it for 5 mins. They helped dust and sweep...and have been on their best behavior. Yeah, the sun is definitely contributing to that.
Yesterday I went to the hospital to visit my nephew and Mom. My Mom and I ate lunch, while J napped. Oooh how I love hospital cafeteria food...or even McD's, but we chose a place that served wraps. Oh my was it ever good. I had a veggie that was on a sundried tomato wrap. It was LOADED with veggies, a bit of couscous, feta and tampada. It was awesome! The best part...I stayed on track!!! It was a nice visit...but I feel for my Mom. She's there alone with J ... and though she has her laptop and knitting, hospital days are years. I'll go up again tomorrow, and maybe this time take her some food, eating out gets old...even if you love it.
Well, I should get on with my workout....I wasn't able to workout yesterday, so I REALLY need it today!! Move more Mandie :) I'll post my weekend journals on Monday.
Yesterday I went to the hospital to visit my nephew and Mom. My Mom and I ate lunch, while J napped. Oooh how I love hospital cafeteria food...or even McD's, but we chose a place that served wraps. Oh my was it ever good. I had a veggie that was on a sundried tomato wrap. It was LOADED with veggies, a bit of couscous, feta and tampada. It was awesome! The best part...I stayed on track!!! It was a nice visit...but I feel for my Mom. She's there alone with J ... and though she has her laptop and knitting, hospital days are years. I'll go up again tomorrow, and maybe this time take her some food, eating out gets old...even if you love it.
Well, I should get on with my workout....I wasn't able to workout yesterday, so I REALLY need it today!! Move more Mandie :) I'll post my weekend journals on Monday.
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