Weekend Recap, Weekly Weigh In

I'm in a slump...and trying to claw my way out. Ugh. Do you ever just get so disappointed in YOURSELF that you don't know what to do?! That's me. I KNOW what to do...but struggle with doing it. I am good for a few days, and then crash and burn. Very disturbing. But don't worry...I'm okay. I always pick up the pieces and try again. It's really all you can do, you know?!

Okay...so on to the fun stuff.

My plans were:

• Journal and be a good WW
  
• Drink my h20 - 80oz/day
  
• Workout at least once
• Enjoy Friday date night with the Hunney
  
• Enjoy my Saturday with family and friends

Here is my outcome:

• Did not journal ONE DAY! Pathetic!
  
• Totally drank some h20, but on Sunday I was short of 80oz!
  
• Did NOT workout. On Sunday when I was getting ready to go with a friend I realized my gym clothes (and more importantly sports bras) were at WORK!!!!
  
• Had a wonderful date night with Hunney and saw 2012!!!
  
• Totally enjoyed craft day at my house with my aunts and friends!!! We had a BALL!

Totally blew the weekend when it came to weightloss. But, life isn't all about weightloss right??

So today...weigh day. Gulp Was not looking forward to it. Like I said, I'm in a slump. No exercise in 4 days and no journaling the same! SCARY STUFF!!!

I was fortunate to see a MAINTAIN. I hate it...but I will take it. I mean, I deserve it...but I still hate it. I HATE that I'm not moving the way I want to. I asked myself this morning..."Mandie, you've lost 50'ish lbs, WHY is it so hard to lose the remaining 30?!!" One day at a time....


On to goals....

What I accomplished last week:

• Journal and be a good "WW" - only got 3.5 days in
  
• Exercise 3 days - again worked out 2 days
  
• Continue with 30 days of affirmations - missed 4 days
  
• Make 1 new recipe - YES, french dip in the crockpot that was AWESOME!
  
• Finish the work on my desk (my personal goal with GAG) - YES 75% complete!
  
• Take my Multi-vitamin- missed 2 days on the weekend
  
• Drink at least 80oz h20 (weekends I struggle) - Only missed 1 day (Sunday)
  

And for new goals....

What I want to accomplish this week:

• Journal and be a Good WW
• Enjoy Thanksgiving (Free day) and make sure I talk about what I'm thankful for
• Exercise 3 days, even if it's walking!!
• Continue 30 days of Affirmations
• December monthly menu plan
• Get DESK clean!
• Have fun Black Friday shopping with Mom!!
  

There ya have it... not too happy today... with myself. Need to reread some blog posts I made when I was motivated and map out my plan :) There...I put on a smiley... it's okay. It's Thanksgiving, my favorite holiday! And yeah, I LOVE food. I just hate this is such a struggle. Really...I do!

My rump is in a slump

This should be like a thankful Thursday...or even a THIRSTY Thursday...but instead my "rump is in a slump". Ugh. I have so much going on in my mind right now that I'm getting dizzy from the circles. It all boils down to how much I HATE where I am right now. Really, I do. I feel like I'm going no where. I've lost this weight before...and here I am trying to lose it again. I can't help but wonder am I going to lose and regain for the rest of my life...and NEVER be happy? What am I doing wrong? HOW did I regain the weight? Maybe my workout isn't good enough? Maybe I'm cheating on my journals? Whatever the reason I just want to SCREAM!

It doesn't help that I feel "fat" today. I know you all have those days too...where you just FEEL "blah" and fat. Well that's me - TODAY. Maybe tomorrow I will feel better!

On a positive note I made myself go to Step class and sweated my heart out for 45 mins, and tonight I'll do the Hundred(s) Challenges. TRYING to put a smile on my face... because I know I can do this and I know what it takes....

So, here's my journal for yesterday!! Over by 149 calories - again pretty good and I'm happy with that.