August 2010 Goals!

It's time...I've abandoned my good ole blog for too long, and I'm back. I want my LIFE BACK... with that means creating time for me. And GOOD time. Not wasteful time. I want to feel good about myself again, and not frumpy and fat. So...I need August goals.

*Side Note* So of you may or may not know my husband left me March 4, 2010. It was the day after our 2 wedding anniversary. Yes he was having an affair...Yes, it CRUSHED me...Yes I lost a piece of myself...Yes I totally went off track...and YES I'm finding myself again. Today even I'm finding myself. A new self...a BETTER self!!! We are still friends, and yes I still have deep feelings towards the end of my marriage. I try to date...but I'll be honest, it's TOUGH. Nothing too serious...that's for certain!!!! "the first cut is the deepest..."

My goals for August are easy peasy, but should help me get back on track!
~ Journal 6 out of 7 days/week
~ Exercise 30 mins 5x/week
~ Drink at least 64oz of h20/day

LHAS Challenge Week 7 Check In

Time is so wasting away, and my middle isn't. I'm letting my crazyness of my life get in the way of what I truly want and I'm so tired of it. I pledge that this week will be better..to MYSELF!!!!

My life is crazy busy with work and with home life, so I just haven't found time to get in here and put up any blogs. I barely have time to do this one measly weekly one! Forgive me y'all.

So today's weigh in.... 157. A gain of .4 from last week. Blah.

0 minutes of exercise too.

Hmmm...could no exercise + eating like crap = a gain in weigh in? Most definitely Mandie!!! Next week shall be better!

Here are my 4 goals for the challenge.

1. JOURNAL
2. Drink my water on the weekends!
3. NO FAST FOOD
4. Get to my workout classes at the gym!

LHAS Challenge Week 6 Check In

What a terrible week y'all. Just when I think my life is headed on a straight path, there is a detour. On 2 separate occasions, in less than one week, comments were made about my weight. Granted, they aren't coming from the best of people...but it still hurt nonetheless. You know what follows right? Instead of being mad and working my butt off to show these people, I emotional ate, and ate, and ate. I deserved the gain I received...and I'm mad at myself or letting these pathetic miserable people win...

156.6 +2.2lbs. I also was miserable enough I didn't workout one day. How about them apples?!!!

What have I learned from this experience? Well...what they say or think of me really doesn't matter. Yes, it hurts to hear someone say things about you. Especially when you've worked really hard to make changes. Alright even harder that you have poor self image and then this ADDS to it big time. But you know what...I realize these people are miserable and truthfully just want me to feel miserable too. It worked...for a little bit. But I'm over it. It has to be ME that is happy with myself and my body. And if I'm eating poorly, not working out, I know I will feel miserable...not only that but I will start to look that way too.

So, yeah, today is a new day...another new one. I have a good attitude and I'm giving it my full effort this week. I want to be pleasantly surprised how good it feels...because I know I will feel better if I'm actively TRYING.

LHAS Challenge Week 5 Check In

So I had to miss Week 4's check in last week. I was tending to a sick child at home, and had no internet access to check in. Another week has already flown by, and it is time to check in AGAIN. These weeks are really going by quick!!!!

I have a nice maintain this week. It's an actual loss, because last week I had a slight gain. So I'll take the little loss/maintain I got this week.

154.4 +/- 0

101 mins exercised total. Not nearly what I need!!!

Side note, I had to cancel with WW. It's not because I wanted to, but because I financially needed to. I have a lot of things going on now that I have to worry about and with the divorce, I just can't afford it. So, that's that for now!!!!

LHAS Challenge Week 3 Check In

Another week has gone by. Thankfully, this week I've done better. I wouldn't say perfect by any means...but definitely better! That's the key right?!!!

My life is still hectic and crazy, and "dramafied", so you'll have to forgive me for not much of an update, and no updates during the week. It's just so much to handle right now. So, if you are a reader, I appreciate your patience with me :)

So, here's my stats.... lost 2lbs YIPPIE!! Putting me at 154.4. Nice :)

And I upped my activity minutes to 180 Mins! On my way :)

Starting June 1st my plan is to restart P90x. I want to see results. TONING. I need it. It's a killer workout, and intense for 90 days...but I really need something. Another friend is doing it too...so the two of us should be able to tackle this!!!!

LHAS Challenge Week 2 Check In

Well, week 2 has come and gone. When will my life ever settle so I can get my stuff in gear? Seriously!!! I found myself at lunch instead of going to workout, sitting with my coworkers at the lunch table. This is not a good thing. Yes, the conversation was/is...but I find myself hungry and off track. Not to mention I'm missing the exercise my body needs!! ARGH!!!!

Needless to say, I got a whopping 75 mins of exercise Week 2. Blah! I know, better than nothing, but practically that is nothing. But, I'm over it...and I'm gonna focus on this week now.

I also will report a big fat maintain. Yep...I'm lucky to have that. I ate so many pieces of cake from the boys birthday party on Sunday. I just didn't care. I was so wore and stressed from it, I wanted and loved it! Terrible I know. 156.4

But don't worry, I'm okay. I truly am. I know what I want...and I honestly know what I have to do to get it, and I want this week to reflect that. I have something to do on Saturday that may cause some friction, but if I can get a good workout in in the morning before going out, then I will feel good.

Here's to a better week!!! Hope all my LHAS challengers are doing better than me!!!!

LHAS Challenge Week 1 Check In

Well, I started off dynamic, and fizzled into nothing. Blah! I hate that. But, it has helped motivate me for making some changes this next week. I have to if I want to get anywhere. I can't be so passive, that's for sure. If I really want this, I have to grab it and DO IT!

My week actually started off great. And then the weekend happened. It was a weekend spent at a kickbutt Pearl Jam concert on Friday which spiraled to me slipping up the rest of the weekend plus.

And then I find myself feeling horrible about it. Horrible about how I look...honestly HORRIBLE about this. My stomach was sour. I was a mess. I'm not feeling MUCH better...but I'll get with it.

So, I had a gain on the good ole work scale this morning. Up to 156.4. Deserved it. Oh, and I have heavier clothes on today too...I know that contributes to SOME of it...but not nearly all. I deserved it like I said. From the partying on Friday night, to the cake I was shoveling in for my sons' b-day, yeah, I deserved it.

I also SUCKED with my workouts/activity last week. I worked out what...2 days. Jeez! Gonna have to step it up a notch!!!

So...that's how week 1 of the LHAS went for me. PHOOEY!